We Always On Journey of Something

things happen fastly and rapid lya s the time cannot be stop for a moment...once u never can be chase the wind..sometime one forget that people only people and had to be remind all time...say...u always been remind of ur fate but then u always forget about it day by day ....end...

i am dying inside.....

as the time flies....i m now stuck between lines ....the two thick lines...the truth is i also cannot know whether now is the time or the time is right to take action....a lot of thing happen this days...been hospitalisd for a week....erm...being numb for two....being childish for third and crazy on forth ...erm...what happen to me are really twist of fate...erm.really could not understand...how come this happen to me sooo quick...i thought of all human ..im the best story board ever created...not for the worst nor the best but the mixed balance and twisted story ever ....is this fate...? good .....bad......balance ...the devil inside me always want out...but yet there always soft landed want to be part of it ...i told al the concern party on it..yet my deep inside yet to be convice....why...what im worrying for..what the ? what ? what im thinking about ....my end is not far away ..may be by December 2009 the time is set ...should i do the distance over it...or what ?

the days goes by ...the endless story still continued..so the passers by the end never in the thought of time...why the answer always need to be seeks the hard way...so dificult as ever ...the nevern ending story always continue although not the direct ways...herm...why we not bother about others as the others alwys try to be nice through time...n

good day ...erm...so close to take off yet so far to reach it...what the life that shouldnt be like this...erm...why on earth that this kind of madness happen in life....always we need to make decision either big or smalll.....

damn..it still not over yet...how could this be.anything happen so fast including times...that i could not ask for more...erm...my head already spinning with thousand ideas and mind blowing thinking about all things...what suppose to be happen if ...anything goes by tomorrow ....ending yesterday..did u ever realize that small things or small action can make a big different for entire of ur life....erm....just u think like this ..one straight line ...for a thousand kilometers..if been differed by 0.5 degrees at the end the deflection can cause the end is not there....u should think about that ....am i choose the right way of how to go with my life ...suddenly i become not confidance of what im suppose to do..and what i suppose not to do...what the heck..? suddenly u begin to feel so lonely ...and so damn not satisfied with ur life and ur dream shatered in pieces.....what u should do in the first place..sometimes i think i should add my blog to outsiders so that i can obtained feedbacks ...

erm...what the hack...sometimes we ever wonder that the worst of all might be the best of somebody ...or not...who can tell me if anything things happen have some klu on how its happen? erm...i don't think any of us know what happen in this wide whole world...do u know that the stupid things always happen near you ...as you yourself cannot control the sequence of life ...once u know once u don't ...is there any courrage in our life ...that occur in life that need to be happy in your whole life...why on earth my mouth alwys the last one to be open when come to the matters of *&^%$ and ()*& ull never want to know how n what ..the hell happen and thinking ....ive been 5 years living like this is it the best time to ask to forget all this ...all the sacrified...all the hard earn cas life...all the things ....erm..dont know exactly what gonna happen...since today will be the last day ...or not....(when i have the courage to do this) .....still thinking ...

how come man always be the one who said brave to face anything but in the same time has a lot to think about and should not be blame of fire that been cause by anybody...perhaps what is in common that we can find between man n women is that the things on dependentcy that occur once the tie been establish...huh ..but when the tie ...start to broken always men take the responsiblity to tied it back or just to pretend in order that the story or the fate will not cursing back to the men. the story always goes once upon a time there was a happy princess....bla bla bla....so that happy princess in the end need to brace all obstacle in order to get her prince...why it become like that huh....is that any easy way to go ..in this world...really need to assumed all in order that in this world no place that we can be happy ever after ....ada ka? whta te f*%k as i heard all the stress all the mess and the all nonsence happening in this world....i really need to take rest man!!! is there any place ...

damn dead doom ....sometimes ull never know that the doom is nearing to you. Once the offence taking toll the damn will arise by it...did ever one understand that the light never come whenever you already jeoperdise the dice...wheel...axis...gth

day...it always the doom day when its come to the work n life...simply as the world come to me as hard as it can get the day can get any better nor any damn ....god knows why...erm still struggling in this wierd world where all thing or matters seems to be ahrd enough ..huh! can we imagine that the thoughest thing to do is the lame or messy things to do ...we should not be so sure what happen next but we should plan what will happen in life...die die die ...end end end ...doom doom doom whats next ...night ..

chapter of life always like to be open although it older part yet to be closed. hence the mystery remain mystery and nothing coming on the way and most of time keep thinking that our mystery remain intact and null. how we gonna start new book while the end yet to be settle.. huh ...u will never know that the best is yet to come ....but i already said it last 2 years is it ..the bst yet to come...yet to come...day by day i am trying hardly to boost my momentum of work and momentum of life yet still slowly pick up ...

the new place been taken part .....this chapter of the day at new beginning the work place , the sorrounding hence.....the sorrow....the gloom...the emptiness is usual as epected....wat a waste....i cannot continue this title as the word become so synonyms ...with all the mess in my life....hope that the world can offer me again new life ...a new journey ...starting ..16 march 09 ......till death ...we strugle ....end 

feb 09 coming and gone ....the world is spinning on me ..always turning back ....cheated, aggression and depression alwyas the number one enemy you will never know what you become......the dumbest person of the whole graphical memories always on my side. Not the best not the good but not the best he will not be best maybe he always be the better person from me....the biggest obstacle is that the mountain need to be climb and to be death throne ......arghhh u ll never know what going to be happen next n what going to be happen now....even thing within second of time u will never know so what u know right now....what u know is that the thing u know always not the through erm....same old story the people around us always trying to talk what they should not talk n always like to condemn other n should not what happening to me ...im stressssss ....

since the dawn of time people yet to decide what best in life n what is not...erm the best always last to come and the worst alwys first to appear never to easy to run away from all the mess but always easy to jump into it ..ull never know what the consciences of life that should never take place. Life never easy as we all know n never hard as we expected...predict unpredictable...touch untouchable....do what people think cannot do ...arghhh ull never know in the end of the day what u get n what u should not get ...summary of the day always the one that suit what best happen in the earlier day ...previous day ....daa

so many activities happen this 2 months since my last post...ermmm new year come and yet the same old story resurfacing erm...wat a mess ....erm....huh i ll try to change but still .....it is diffult to predict what happen next ermm...daaa